I’m finding this all so difficult. I will never understand what happened to the happiness that we had. I’m struggling to grasp my head around what happened and maybe it’s my fault. I could tell you weren’t as happy as you were and I knew it wasn’t me so I fought and fought to change that and I couldn’t… Maybe it was my fault. I’m so sorry. Everyday I wake up and tell myself that I’m done and I’m over this but I don’t know. I feel that way sometimes but I think I still love you… I think I always will. I want to be there for you so so bad and I wish you didn’t give up. You made me so happy and then you stopped caring and I will never understand. I don’t want you to forget me and as hard as it will be I need to keep you in my life and maybe that is selfish of me but I don’t know how to do this. You were everything to me and I hope that when you find yourself you consider coming back to me because I don’t think I can stop loving you in some sort of way. I need to see you this weekend. Maybe it will bring some sort of closure. I don’t know but please… That is all I am asking. I gave so much with nothing in return for so long…. Give me this. I’m so so sorry. I wish I could do more or bring a smile to your face everyday. I just wish I could do something. I just feel like I have failed you and my heart is broken and now I don’t know what to do. I never thought and never will think you were/are a terrible person… I still love(d) you no matter what and I am sorry if that hurts to hear. I believe that you deserve my love.